I plan everything I do. Every single step of my day is carefully crafted to the smallest detail. I have no time for mistakes or mismanagement of my time.
After my careful “basic” planning I sit down and map out more detailed plans. I spend most of my thinking time planning how to plan better to become more productive.
I’m the queen of planning. In a way, I plan to plan.
According to my strategic life plan, every minute of my life should be planned. When I have no plan, my anxious nature takes over, and I end up having anxiety attacks. I start shaking on the inside, am unable to move, my body aches and the fear is so painful that I want to jump out of my skin just to stop this feeling for a sec. or two.
If I’m going, being honest with you none of my plans has ever entirely worked the way I had planned.
Moreover, it seems that now I can’t even plan a day without some unexpected shit coming up that ruins my plans.
What do I have to do to stop planning while allowing the trust to take over my life instead of constant unbearable fear? Is there an answer to this question?